The short answer is that I’m okay for now. Dropping classes and suspending work was a good idea. I have a lot more down time and less stress. I can also afford to be lazy when I feel depressed. I’m also finding a lot of joy in praising God. Sometimes I lie in bed and the urge to do it. So I tell him how powerful, good and wonderful He is until I run out of words. I run out of words pretty quickly. But he is so good.
What were we talking about? Yes, how I’m feeling. I’ve been depressed for more than a week now, but it seems to have lifted this morning. I was able to make myself a warm breakfast – eggs, waffles and chocolate milk. I haven’t done that in a while. I still feel lazy, but I can make myself do my duties a few at a time.
Death is no longer a very inviting idea. It’s still something I would like, but the pull is much weaker. My counseling sessions are going well. Sadly, my medicines seem to be working even less. I don’t feel as sleepy as I used to and there’s no nausea despite the fact that my dosage has been raised.
Still, I’m on the right track, I think.